I have made up my mind.

CA week is gonna be over soon. by the look of it. i may not do well dis term.
confirm down for many many remedials.
after looking back at my life...on how i focus on my studies.
i realised...there's no more time to play a fool.
no more time for nonsense.
i have to get downright serious and focus on my goals/dreams/aims.

i really want to do well for O-levels NEXT YEAR. yes next year! see how fast time flies. flipping thru my reflections log freaks me out even more.
cos i realise...time passes by soo fast. it leaves you behind.
if we dont use it well. we will be left running after it like a mad person.

i need that 11 points. which hopefully after minusing off 4 points i wud roughly get around 7points.
i need that 7points (after minusing off).
i need to enter a good JC. i need to get into university.
i need to graduate.
i need to find a good job and well-paid.

its time for me to focus everything on my studies and academics.
PLUS my CCA. something that i can fall back on.
i have no time to think...if u wanna HATE me. DISLIKE me. DONT WANNA BE FRIENDS with me.
its time to cast that aside.
i dont think i wanna get into a SERIOUS relationship just yet. not now. not next year. not this year.
yesh, no doubt i have proven that i can still study even if in a relationship.
but after the break up...i took damn long to get over it.
now im the one going crazy over this CA things. i am letting MYSELF suffer.
therefore, its time to get into SERIOUS STUDY MODE rather than relationship...

i shall take my mom's advice which is study hard/smart and den achieve what i want.
and what auntie ogy said...when im a capable career woman already...with beauty and intelligence. guys will come running. cos social circle expands.

so boys,
you can like me. i feel honoured. thanks :))
but i wanna achieve my dreams/goals in life first...
maybe after Os...den i would think back about relationships...
we shall see how things go...
at a young age. what is love exactly?

there aint such thing as forever. but only a lifetime.