i wish i could

i wish i could have my LIFE back.
i wish i could remember how LIFE feels like before all these.
i wish i could just forget the past and look ahead.
i wish i could just move on and forget about him...

but everytime i try...
everytime i do something to forget it...
the memories kept haunting me.
the memories kept lingering in my head...

i just want to say "im fine" and mean it.
i just want to laugh with no intention of crying.
i just want to smile without any hurt feelings inside.
i just want to get back my LIFE.

it was my fault for making HIM the meaning to my LIFE.
it was my fault for hoping so much for us to last FOREVER.
it was my fault for loving HIM like there's no tomorrow.
it was my fault for forcing myself to hate him even how much i love him.

i used to wonder how life is without him.
i used to wonder how would i live my life without him.
and now, i noe how it feels.
and now, i noe...how my life is without him.

how i wish i cud easily replace you...
like how easy u find a replacement of me...
its hard now to mean the words I LOVE YOU i said to others...
cos every single I LOVE YOUs i had said were all meant for you...with all my heart.

how i wish...i cud move on easily.
as fast as u just showed to me u could.
but im not you, thus i cant.
i wonder why sometimes, its so hard to forget you.

others said, you dont deserve me.
others said, we are just too mismatched.
others said, i shudnt be wasting my time over you.
others said, i shudnt be crying over you...cos u dont deserve it.

but I SAY...
never once i tot u dont deserve me...cos u made me happy even when sometimes ur words hurts.
never once i tot we were a mismatched...even when u said we were.
never once i tot it was a waste of time thinking of you...cos frankly, im still in love with you.
never once i tot u dont deserve my tears...cos to me...u do.

when i found you, i tot u were the one.
when i found you, i wud do anything to make us last.
i tried, i really did, but sometimes i wonder why did i give up?
why did we give up ? when we once said we wud do our best to make us last...

u were the bestest i ever had.
i made u the most important person in my life.
i made u the meaning to my life...
thus, you will NEVER be easily replaced till the day i find the guy who could make me feel loved just like the way you do.