there's no pressure.

After the break up last december,
i had no more pressure...
cos i no longer have a bf...and i dont have to worry abt getting
threatened by my mom saying a bf can cause my academics to go down down down.
so if my academics were bad...break up is what she wanted me to do...
BUT...
thanks to that freaking mindset.
my results went berserk last term...

bad bad bad was the outcome.
almost lost the trust from BOTH my parents...
so nowww...im working on gaining back the trust from my parents.
i need to get extremely well for the next 3 terms...
till FYE. and den continue doing well till my O-levels...and hopefully ace my O-levels...

why am i doing this?
cos the pressure is on...
if i dont do well AGAIN. my mom wudnt allow me to have a bf...haha!
so nowww...im gonna work hard all over again. and get back the good marks i have been getting...
so den, when one day, things are confirmed...
mommy dont have to worry abt my studies and me having bf...

frankly,
for me, bf aint a distraction...
its my sense of motivation, my pillar of strength.

so sweetheart, we work hard together and excel together kayes?
and den maybe ONE day, i wud introduce u to both my parents, without having them
scolding us or anything :))

and to friends, OMG! haha please dont stop me from doing my work

during recess or during free time..haha

i really need my good grades back!