hmms.

i never get a chance to make it all perfect again.

suddenly, having him back into my life. makes me wanna fall back in love with him again.
but its something im trying to refrain myself from doing. cos i noe his love aint for me.

it kinda suck that everyone noes about us.
it kinda suck that everyone knew we used to be together.
it kinda suck that everyone seems to admire us back then.
it kinda suck that everyone thinks we were a perfect couple before.
it kinda suck that everyone now knows that you and i are not together any longer.
it kinda suck and stupid that i made YOU my world, my life, my everything, my every need.

why does it suck?
cos somehow everything about them.
reminds me of you.
cos somehow everything about what they talk.
is about you. me. or us.
cos somehow without you in my life like you used to be.
it makes me lifeless.

pillows drenched in tears almost every single night.
reminiscing the past without any end.
the heart aches every now and then.
till when does this have to go on?

cos im not strong enough to go through it any longer.
it hurts so bad. just so bad. & there's nothing i can do.