pillows drenched in tears.

Hey there. yesterday night was horrible i felt damn pathetic. its just horrible and the heartache sux big time :( i started crying till i fell asleep... like that have never happened before. woke up with swollen eyes as usual but not that bad larhs :))

went to school. went down for assembly and yeahs...HANISAH PON-ed! omg! gerl i tell u it felt different without having u around! haha. weirdness gone gitus. hehes. lessons were normal :)) HMT was kinda fun? cos we played scrabbles. with cikgu. hahaha! he was sooo perasaan liddat! hehes. other lessons were fine :)) nothing interesting happened.
last period was common legacy. we had a talk from TJC. me and kimmy are considering of DSA-ing to TJC next year :)) insya allah will get thru :)) yay yay yay! hehes. and den... it was lunch time. we went to video world. chit chatted etc.

went for drama. got to noe the excoS! yesh uhs! conquer babe! alhamdulillah :)) my clique mates are in the excos.

aisyah: president.
kimmy: secretary.
nadiah: publicity manager.
ME: asst. publicity manager & treasurer :))

yesh uhs! ameera is the sec 3 LC. haha. congrats to the others too :)) anyways. drama was as per normal except the part when kim smack my face while running. sad life :( hehes. went home at around 5? took 10 and bused to simei with ameera. walked home without mp3. cos the battery went DEAD :(
listened to the song of nature. reached home. showered. prayed. got ready and went off to eastpoint with mom.
went to eat dinner. i didnt have any appetite achuali. but got no choice had to eat :( so i forced the food down my throat. i felt like puking at some point. sheesh!
after dinner went walking around. mom and bought clothes and den went to KFC and hot dog shop to get food for the family. den headed home. talked to her about results :( i have disappointed myself and my parents. tell me how pathetic can i get? VERY.
& to make things worse, today didnt really turn out the way i wanted it to be. someone just pissed me off throughout the whole afternoon. its really irritating how manipulative someone can get and how frustrating the person make u feel. i dont need someone liddat in my life frankly. but oh wells. the person is already part of my life now :'(

this week is really retarded. i hope next week wud be good ? cos monday = holiday. tuesday might be a day out with the Niners :)) and den wednesday might be the treat day with my friends :)) thursday is parent's meeting...that one i heckcare already. friday wud be the last day of school. haha! but well. sharifah is always busy right? so june holidays is packed.

first week : 26-28 may --> Kelab Obor camp.
second week: 2-5 june --> possibly leadership camp.
third week: FREE!!
last week: might have last prep. for CCA and math supp.

okeys larh till here!
my heart feels soo BROKEn. and i feel so EMO. sheesh!
ciaos!