i cant please everyone!

i thought today was kinda gonna be a smooth one? but no im wrong.
basically cos people kept tinking way TOO much about the things i said.

i almost fought with bestie yesterday cos the way i smsed him sounded like i didnt care about him.
for goodness sake! if i dont care. i wudnt have bothered replying!
if i hadnt been patient and remembered what i told myself, which is NOT to fight with him
over trivial matters again, i wud have just snapped and ignored him like before and pretended we are 2 strangers.

and den just now someone had to just make me feel pissed.
dont force me into doing things. its soo obvious sharifah has been "lost" in her own school world.
i have been busy with 1001829182 things in just the FIRST week of school. how am i supposed to juggle everything ?
try juggling having to do chairman job, ur buddies, studies, homeworks, drama farewell and csp project plus the additional legacy project now.
im trying to do things one at a time! i am finishing off my buddies thang first, csp project and legacy project first before i proceed to the other stuffs. goodness sake. i am NOT casting my responsbilities aside.
just for now, let me finish off what i NEED to do first before i proceed to another. i work in a different way than urs. if u cud have just gone for the leadership camp, u wud have known better what u shud be doing.
if u keep making me feel annoyed. and i have been patient with it for quite some time, this AINT the first time.
if one day i decided to really give up on you. what wud u feel?
i tried to understand ur situation and helped u out during the june hols... u werent in Singapore and i tried to do what i can... so now, understand my situation. i WILL do my job when i myself have stepped back into this world. u told me what u told me... when im in the semi-daze not cos of MG. but cos of the brunei stuffs and all, how am i supposed to remember? there's the right ting to do at the RIGHT TIME.
if u have really known me , YOU KNOW i DO NOT like to be forced. force me and u wont get what u want.

and nowwwww...
im super frustrated.
LOOK. doesnt mean...when i say about a NEW friend or ANOTHER friend of mine. and say something like
" i love chatting with him/her" ... "he/she is a nice friend!" or even have a dedication for a friend of mine.
THAT DOESNT MEAN, THAT MY OTHER FRIENDS ARE NEGLECTED!
so stop feeling that way!
like YOU PEOPLE, all of you have YOUR OWN FAVOURITE FRIEND right?
like aisyah with liyana.
suhaila...with putri and jeanette.
nadiah with her clique.
and others.
i have my own favourite friends too. and he/she may not be in TKGS. so if u hear me saying this or that about that person. dont feel hurt larhs!
cos come on! just cos u dont get a dedication...and all that sort. u think u are unimportant?
hello! ALL MY FRIENDS are IMPORTANT TO ME!
but some means MORE to me than others cos the things they have done to make me feel happy/special and all.

EVERYONE expects SOMETHING from me.
have they EVER wondered i DO expect something from them too?
i dont say a thing, when a friend of mine cast me aside right at my face when her bestest friend is around.
i dont do a thing, when im left untold about things around me.
now, tell me why i bothered replying some people smses but not theirs... cos the answer is simple... u just have to ask urself.