i noe where i stand now.

i just needed to wait.
wait for the day that she would be back here.
back here, back to this little red dot.
i thought, my instincts, thoughts and dreams wud be wrong.
hoping it was wrong.
but what is HOPE when it is in Sharifah's life?
it means nothing in her dictionary.
cos all her hopes and dreams, its just what it is.
hopes and dreams.

and now, she's back.
what i expected. came true.
right before my eyes, it all unfolded.
like i said, when she's back.
im more than prepared to be forgotten.
what am i in your eyes? i noe, NOTHING.
im just a gerl, that you look for, when u are BORED.
when u are LONELY.
i sooooo happen to be there when u needed someone.
i sooooo happen to be around when u need someone to kill ur boredom.
i sooooo happen to be around when she aint around for u to talk to.
i sooooo happen to be...THE SUBTITUTE.

u noe, i noe.
i aint supposed to be the subtitute.
she was.
but now, turn the story all around.
i am.

such wonderful person u are.
im soo touched by everything u did.
u noe wad, im totally drained and tired from playing all these games.
all these hopes.
it just make ME waste my energy and time.
it just make MY HEART ache and all.
it just make ME feel all the pain i dont ever wanna feel.

but oh wells, im soo used to it right?
cos sharifah rawiah bte matnor, apparently.
is ONLY NEEDED, when u need someone to...
kill ur boredom.
get rid of ur loneliness.
depend on.
that's all.
thanks ehks.
thanks A LOT. i APPRECIATE it.

(do not assume if its you, her or him. cos it can be anyone. only i noe and someone else)