im too soft-hearted with guys ... ):

was chatting with nadiah... and she told me this:

"when a guy breaks a girls heart, she is not too stupid to let the guy break it again but she is stupid enough to forgive him for the damge he caused her heart, that girl is you.........your life is a drama (not in a bad way, in a matter of fact way)"

true enough, i forgave him for the damage he did to my heart...even how bad it was to go through that very night... and sad enough, my life is a drama. but this episode..it hurts so bad :( but sadly, i cant say CUT and edit it...nor can i say CUT and redo the scenes.

i still cant believed KS is no longer my honey...i cant come to terms with that especially after yesterday and friday. i cant seem to heal this pain ... knowing that he left just like dat.

i thought i was doing fine without you.
until that friday that i saw you.
my heart ache so badly that i cried.
realising its no longer you by my side.
u apologised ytd...and that hurts even more.
cos boy, im sorry that i still love you.
i wish that i could have you as my KSku all over again.
but sadly, you are with someone else.