i have a choice...but i chose you.

i had a choice...but i chose you. why do u have to disappoint me?
you had a choice...but u chose her. how did i ever disappoint u?
i do love surprises...but i DO NOT love this surprise u gave me...

so yesterday went for the gathering. it was fun with the cuzzins. i had a fun time laughing away and screaming away with the cuzzins. being bullied. bullying. its just soo fun to have them by my side again :)) i miss them like crazy... had bitching sessions with twinnie. tinking sessions too. she about the ex. me about the heartbreaker.
and i think...gerls should really start appreciating the guy that trully loves her...

i have a guy friend...and i must say he is a guy dat every gerl dream for...almost all my cuzzins and friends who have read the 2 ex-es blogs...knew how much he totally loved that gerl...from what i have seen for myself he has done for her...its sooo obvious that he really did love her even NOW when they are apart.
she's lucky but she doesnt know that. she appreciates him but not all the time. for a guy liddat. she should not have hurt him the way she did. even if some other guy has the same look as him...that guy may NOT have the same character as him. he is like one in a million. but HIS ONE IN A MILLION is THAT VERY GERL.
i really hope she could see and start realising how much she should appreciate this godsend boy. for a guy like that, the influence of friends or any other hawt guy shouldnt matter...cos he is worth everything. and she's lucky to have him...
if you have been hurt so badly..you wud definitely realise how much importance it is to appreciate the person who love you so much and willing to be hurt just to win u back.
so mary...from a friend of both of you and him...if u are reading this...i really hope u tink back and realise and remember all the things he have done JUST FOR YOU... he is still hoping for you... and u noe that, so dont play with his heart... (and im writing this on my own accord...he didnt ask me or anything in case you think that way.)

sometimes...i really regret what i have done. and i realised myself, that i let go of someone who really loved me. but oh wells... i cant turn back time. cos that's impossible...and since i have let him go and hurt him so bad...i shudnt ask to be back in his arms. im not that kind of gerl. i know how i made you feel back then when i went away...cos im feeling it now. and i noe all the SORRYs i said meant nothing cos i still hurt u. wadever it is...im glad u are fine now...i hope. (and i noe u noe who you are)